Thursday, October 28, 2010
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Sept 9, 1991
Dear Diary,
Today was ok. My lunch was good I failed in math. and no marbles. I got constipated. We got book orders. My moms getting her hair cut. She will look bad. My room got cleaned.
Love,
Annika
I LOVE DANNY
Today was ok. My lunch was good I failed in math. and no marbles. I got constipated. We got book orders. My moms getting her hair cut. She will look bad. My room got cleaned.
Love,
Annika
I LOVE DANNY
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Discusting
Why does "boring" get a capital B? Why was I so negative about our dog going to the groomer? Why did I feel these revelations were so personal that I could share them with nobody?
Like last time, I had crossed out Kyle and written in Danny's name. I think when my affections changed I went through and updated all past entries.
The bully thing is interesting now that bullying has become such an issue, especially of LGBT kids, of which I guess I was one, though I didn't identify as when I was that young.
I don't remember being horribly bullied as a kid, more just picked on for being awkward or ugly, but no more than any other kid. The first time the sexual thing donned on me was in 5th grade on our class retreat, this girl in our cabin decided we needed a name for our cabin and should be called "Boy Crazy" but then pronounced "If that's our name, then Annika doesn't belong." I felt weird because I liked boys at that point but wasn't crazy vocal about it. In retrospect she probably picked up on something that even I wasn't aware of. I was way more interested in our pretty 12th grade counselor who introduced us to the song "Mr Jones."
Like last time, I had crossed out Kyle and written in Danny's name. I think when my affections changed I went through and updated all past entries.
The bully thing is interesting now that bullying has become such an issue, especially of LGBT kids, of which I guess I was one, though I didn't identify as when I was that young.
I don't remember being horribly bullied as a kid, more just picked on for being awkward or ugly, but no more than any other kid. The first time the sexual thing donned on me was in 5th grade on our class retreat, this girl in our cabin decided we needed a name for our cabin and should be called "Boy Crazy" but then pronounced "If that's our name, then Annika doesn't belong." I felt weird because I liked boys at that point but wasn't crazy vocal about it. In retrospect she probably picked up on something that even I wasn't aware of. I was way more interested in our pretty 12th grade counselor who introduced us to the song "Mr Jones."
8 Is Such a Hard Age.
Seriously guys, I donn even want to tell you about it.
Underneath Danny's name I had written but then erased "Kyle" who was my big crush the year before. 8 year old love is fickle.
March 8th, 1992. Sin Is Great.
I took religion very seriously as a child. At St. Margaret's Episcopal School we went to chapel every morning before class and I listened closely except for when I got bored and then I'd play the alphabet game or make up sex stories in my head. They talked a lot about sin in chapel and church on Sundays and I figured if the priest is saying it, it must be good and Bible approved. I had a Deep Thought about this and wrote it down in my diary. This is what it said:
Danny was my major childhood crush and factors heavily into my grade school diaries. Even if I'm having deep thoughts about God it still has to end with dramatic proclamations of love. I was just that kind of girl.
Danny was my major childhood crush and factors heavily into my grade school diaries. Even if I'm having deep thoughts about God it still has to end with dramatic proclamations of love. I was just that kind of girl.
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